And the dianosis is...

Crohnes disease. That is what has been causing me so much grief for over a year now. To bad I didn't go to the doctor sooner. I had my appointment on Friday to go and see the results of my colonoscopy that I had done two weeks ago. The first thing my doctor said when he looked at the pictures is that it is horrible.

What is Crohnes? You can go to this website

(http://digestive.niddk.nih.gov/ddiseases/pubs/crohns/ ) and you can read about it there. My doctor gave me a good description to. At some point I got an infection in my bowel. The bad cells look so much like the good colon cells, that once my body had killed off all the bad ones it just kept working on my good colon cells causing ulcers and inflammation. That is what he said was bad. I have ulcers, lots of them, all over in my bowel. He said it is a pretty sever case of it. He has seen worse but this is pretty bad. He started giving me the options of meds, grouping them into two different ones. He gave me the hardest hitting ones that he could. He said for how bad my case is the first ones wouldn't do anything for me. I think he called them biologics. They are a mixture of steroids, autoimmune suppressors,and some other things. My mind was kind of going a hundred miles an hour so I can't remember everything. The kicker is that these medicines are given in a shot form. That's not bad, you may think. Except for the fact that I have to give myself that shot. That freaks me out. A lot. I'm sure I will get used to it, but it still freaks me out. I'm not looking forward to the side effects either.

So that's that.

I have calmed down a lot. Friday was really bad.

I probably won't die from it. You can. But I probably won't.

One of the hard things is, that because of the medicine, I have to wait to have a baby. I was hoping that some time soon we could start to try for another one and I was getting really excited. Not the end of the world, I know, it just kind of bums me out. But better to be healthy first.